This semester has had its ups and downs and what I have
found that it is really stressful being in college. It’s almost like the times when I entered my
junior year in high school when everyone told me that this year was the biggest
year because colleges mostly look at this year.
It’s kind of like that pressure for probably four years. Imagine doing what feels like constant work
in your dorm room that you feel like when one thing is done with you just have
another whole project to begin. That is
what my first semester of school felt like.
At some points I just had to stop and take a break and sometimes those
breaks were too long. I forgot to do
things and I couldn’t finish them in time.
Time management was a big factor when it came down to it because I would
never know when to finish hanging out and when to start doing my homework. Now that I look back maybe I need to take
more breaks and not try to do everything at once. This winter break so far was a big breath of
fresh air because I finally had a week to do nothing but hang out with old
friends and not worry about school.
Until this assignment of course.
The classes I have taken have taught me not a lot I already knew. I knew everything before going into math that
was taught and same thing with Spanish. Some
knew things were taught in my English and philosophy class. The INQ class we learned about time
management and stress and clearly I did not take a lot from it. I struggled with grades I thought and nothing
really surprised me about my grades considering they are about average with my
typical high school grades. I can definitely
work harder in class next semester and I am hoping I will learn after this
mistake. My problem also is that I am
not organized. If I was to be organized
and write everything down then I would have everything done ahead of time and I
would not have to rush everything at once.
Next semester I am going to try and be a whole new person. A person that I should have been this semester
when I entered college, and I need to learn to be more organized and more
responsible. I can tell you that where I
want to be from here is a long way from where I am now. I want to be so far away that I cannot even
go back to this way of unorganization.
This problem of mine needs to stop some way, and I need to just focus in
on what is important. My only
achievements are what I did well in.
Classes like Math, English, and Philosophy are the only things I can say
I am proud of, and as for the rest I am only embarrassed. I am embarrassed that I let my grade slip
away from me in my INQ class and I am embarrassed that I did not do the work I should
have done in that class. I know my mother
would be flipped with the way I slacked in this class and knowing how much
potential I actually have. Hopefully
this is that last of it and I only want to see this in the past and for now on I
will move forward. 
